Still trying to find balance and such.
Why hello there internet.
It's been a hot minute, huh?
Well, I'm back. Or at least mostly back? I don't know.
I left you for awhile. In part because having an infant is a massive undertaking. In part because life became much bigger and more overwhelming than I could cope with.
I am on the cusp of some major things happening in life.
I have a newborn. I'm making decisions that will impact my career. I'm actually doing this thing which I love yet which also scares the ever living shit out of me.
And at the same time I feel like I know exactly where I want to be and I feel lost as hell as to how to get there and what I actually want the destination to look like.
I haven't written because I haven't felt like it. I've been battling depression and simply trying to stay afloat. Grief + new baby + work stress added up and left me floundering for a minute.
I'm coming back. I'm figuring things out.
I don't know what this thing I'm trying to do is going to look like, but I keep reminding myself that maybe people do believe in what I'm trying to do and don't think I'm full of shit.
Maybe my voice does matter.
Maybe there is a purpose for me in this life.
Maybe I will allow this to become what it will.
Maybe this is all bigger than me and
Maybe that is ok.